post-camp / nonplussed?

c. 2011

written, arranged*, and produced by PARAE
recorded by eriq (summer 2010-summer 2011)
recorded digitally using analog methodology with digital performer and a mac. no autotune, programming, or voodoo fakery.
mixed by eriq & jimo; except Even If The Whole World Is Wrong, The Tall Man, and It Always Ends in Tears mixed by eriq

performed by:

eriq: vocals, guitars, bass, keyboards, synths, piano, noise, fx, percussion, sunn
tommi: vocals, drums, percussion, glockenspiel
jimo: vocals, guitars, bass, keyboards, synths, piano, fx, percussion, orange

backing vocals on Love 2.0, We're Breaking Up, and Die Young by The Black Girls - toni and jeri
additional backing vocals and spoken japanese on Love 2.0 by maryann and yukari tanaka (respectively)
*bass arrangement ideas on Love 2.0, Fun, and perhaps a few other spots here and there - initiated by our dear friend corey

art concept and design by eriq and tommi

mastered by Timothy Stollenwerk @ Stereophonic Mastering

during this time period PARAE were eriq, tommi, & jimo.

thanks to those that have believed in us.

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purple & orange

eriq - bass, vox, synth
jimo - guitar, synth fx
tommi - drums

the host

Every beckon is a beartrap with you
To snare my every thirst

Every pleasure is a pitfall with you
To keep me feeling worse

And though it hurts
I'll keep coming back
You have all the things that I lack
You got all those things I lack

Every caress a vie for prowess with you
Got me pinned again

But when we're in bed
I believe all the things that you said
Wrapped tightly in elation
Anesthetized and amputated

You make me beleive I'm just a play-thing to you
Another rat to catch

Feeding of my current market value
Just an itch to scratch

Are you the host that keeps me alive
Or do you need me to surive
You want me to survive?

I got a new shape for you to fit into
Let's see who needs who

But when we're in bed
I believe all those things that you said
My vex quells to sedation
The still night waits for a plea that never comes

jimo - vox, guitar
eriq - backing vox, bass
tommi - drums

what is beauty.

I look in the mirror and what do I see?
I see that today, the mirror hates me
How might I model myself more accurately?
To a scripted response of the superficiality

If I could change, i would change...

Dress myself up until I’m unrecognized
Lo behold me now, infinitely compromised
Cover up the parts I descry as empty
Oh my mimicry of the masculinity

If I could change, i would change...

How might i seek out the attention i deserve
Standing in the corner i silently observe
Pregnant with the bitterness of many nights past
Youth without youth and their memories fading fast

If I could change...i'd change

No, the world doesn't owe me any god damned love
But i ain't got the faith to find it up above
All the self doubting voices in the back of my mind
The more and more i look, the less and less i find

If I could change, i'd change...what is beauty.

eriq - vox, rhythm guitar, bass, handclaps
jimo - backing vox, electric and acoustic guitars, handclaps
tommi - drums, percussion, handclaps

i want to have fun

i want to have fun
without the necessity
escape the bullshit of my life
and find some fucking levity

if i could be myself, no inhibition

NO! get the fuck away from me
NO! don't you fucking touch me
NO! yr facial hair it disgust me
these are the choices you make?

if i could free myself, no volition

oh i am so bored
and it's bringing me down
oh my body is so tired
and i don't feel much of anything anymore

this isn't fun anymore, no i said, no

i don't need to drink to have a good time,
but i'm gonna need some drugs for these assholes around me
just give me some ludes to make them all fade away
something to snort, make me invincible today

like when we were kids
before we even cared
maybe it was just the first time
but now it's become every time

yr pushing me away
i swear it's not the same
yr always wanting something else
and she doesn't start with my name

eriq - vox, rhythm guitar, bass
jimo - backing vox, lead guitar
tommi - drums

love 2.0

the scientists, they brought you back
but it's not the same
your reanimated clone
doesn't even know my name

when we first met
out on the rugby field
you tossed me the ball
and i refused to yield

the chain link fence
around your heart
that holds you in
and keeps us apart
it's different now
why can't we just restart

your sweat stained shorts,
And unwashed hair
first kissed your lips
on a midnight dare
they called you a boy
but i didn't care

running down the city streets
hand in hand at night
Kissing hard yeah in the car
at each stop light

everything seems to move so fast
when your falling in love
can whoever you were
still see me from above

If we could travel to back in time
into the past and live a life of crime
or into space and to the moon
Remember you wanted to see Antartica in june
or be popstars at the top of the scene
doing tons blow living the dream
Ya know it doesn't matter where we go
as long as we get there in time for the show

If i could open up your eyes
So you could the life outside
I'd show the world the way
It was before you died

jimo - vox, bass, chorus lead guitar
eriq - backing and chorus vox, guitar, synth
tommi - drums, backing vox

with tony, jerry, maryann - backing vocals
and yukari tanaka - spoken japanese

"hitchhiker" by the polaroids

Down on the highway
We're picking up strays
Riding this slogan
To the end of our days

Our sound is endangered
Oh so obsolete
They tried to breed it out of us
To make their system complete

Out in the wasteland
Smugglers in the void
Pray to our instincts
Just like Andy Droid

We lost what is to be human
Glad he was there to teach us how
The reprobates all mourn him
They're singing whoa oh

jimo - vox, synth, guitar
eriq - backing vox, bass, synthetic handclaps
tommi - drums, tambourine

die young

Rip me up from the inside
Die young
This wrenching sensation twisting my tendons
Die young
A monument of squandered opportunity
Die young
It wasn’t as good, what was the punch line?
Die young

what did you do to realize your dreams
wake up in a world where nothing's as it seems
i never said that I wanted to live forever
you are the way you look, yeah I remember

Shambling nihilistic mockery
Die young
Waiting, waiting, waiting...
Die young
Always with the talk, but without the action
Die young
What were we thinking, I dunno
Die Young

come condemn me now to my certain fate
how i've become everything i hate
the whole of my flesh, an agreement made
abandon myself for what little you have paid

if you would wait
wait for me somewhere far from here
Safe from all of the things
that we fear

if you would wait
wait for me in the frigid wind
yr violent skin
from here until then

if you would wait
wait for me in the setting sun
until there is nowhere
left to run

if you would wait
wait for me in the dead of the night
away from the
terrible light

eriq - vox, electric and acoustic guitar, synth
jimo - backing vox, bass, electric guitar
tommi - drums, percussion, backing vox

with tony & jerry - backing vocals

the revolting youth & the hipster queen

the revolting youth and the hipster queen
after last season, how little i had seen?
never gave much thought to fucking a machine
you can spit up yr dinner, and we'll all die laughing

enter synthetic, a conventional form
each word she spoke intimate and warm
opened my mouth, and pried back the tongue
she said, don't you want to be forever young?

ring the alarm, and rise to dance
fate's come to offer, offer you a chance
i can wait here all night, with a drink in my hand
'til i'm dizzy and drunk and can't bare to stand

choose or be chosen, that is the trap
ensnared by her tentacles, inhabiting my lap
you've got a fear of females, it's only natural i said
what have i to give but mere compost for the dead

lured to her lair, that i recall
what's she building in there, electrics i saw
secrets and silence, what's that sound?
oh the children are listening, in the underground

the revolting youth and the hipster queen
gonna wake myself up from this terrible dream
the revolting youth and the hipster queen
open my eyes to the world i've never seen

out of the black i awake unknown
pinned in a box of its design
detached of all four of my limbs
mechanics plunged into my spine

the art in the artifice of replicating
a mate not at all, i become the offspring
a few more components, one part old, one part new
she asked if i preferred silver or blue

i never wanted this, no she didn't care
it just laughed and said, well evolution isn't fair
my thoughts fading out, uncharted senses slipping in
counterfeit kisses reborn via silicon skin

eriq - vox, guitar, synth, noise & fx, handclaps
jimo - backing vox, bass, fx, handclaps
tommi - drums, percussion, handclaps

sex n bones (shake 'em)

Haven't dance like this
Since the last insurrection
Escape to the ruins
Of a disco derelict
Bend our bodies in the dark
Till their misshapen
The remains of glitter
And the last cigarette

I choose rock and roll
Over mastercontrol
The Program chases us
But u know they're mistaken
Got our sex and bones
You know where gonna shake'em

Compute our intellect
To poly algorithms
No freedom of choice
So we fled our citadels
Now we're trending a life
Of illicit hedonism
Where nothings to own
And nothings for sale

I choose rock and roll
Over master control
The program chases us
You know where gonna break'em
Got our sex and bones
You know we're gonna shake'em

Oh oh
They can kill off our outlaw gods
Those pirate broadcast seductive stars
But we're still praying

Grab an android as your lover
Run the suicide highway
Through the dead moon dune
And the beats in the sand
Bring your sex bring your bones
You know damn well we're gonna shake'em
Gonna save ourselves in the
Toxic badlands

I choose Rock and roll
Over master control
Got our sex and bones
You know we're gonna shake'em
Got our sex and bones
You know we're gonna shake'em

jimo - vox, guitar
eriq - backing vox, synth bass, whistle
tommi - drums, percussion, conga

even if the whole world is wrong

even if the whole world is wrong
we try and we try, to become strong
but deep in my heart i know that it's true
i can see in yr eyes that we've already lost you

look away, just look away, what value is the price
what do you even know of sacrifice

even if the whole world is wrong
together our time is not for long
it is not enough and soon we shall die
my friend is gone and i don't know why

let us go, let us fight, into the tears of the night
we shall prove to them all, how we were fucking right

all that we ever do
we try, we try, we try
still it is not enough
but it's mine, mine, mine

even if the whole world is wrong

eriq - vox, keys, synth, e-bow guitar
jimo - backing vox, bass, guitar
tommi - drums, percussion, glockenspiel

spoils.

I though you would be
Good for me
And in return I'd be
Good to you

But now, you're in young love
And I'm not young anymore

In dreams, she holds me
In her arms
Believe me, I was
Never lying

But we're not taking about the
Same type of love

I know you're never as quite alone as when you're with me,
Are you?

jimo - vox, piano, acoustic guitar
eriq - electric guitars, bass
tommi - drums

older brother

older brother, come and comfort me
where were you when i needed you most?
hold me, hold me in your arms, feel my breathe upon your chest
where were you when i needed you most?

it wasn't my fault i got so distracted
why did you leave me behind?
i had to disappear, it was just for a little while
why did you leave me behind?

so i'm sailing my ship to the center of the earth
searching for what little i may find
and i'll build a tower taller than the tallest trees
to search for what little i may find

and all of the gifts i have, i will not share
to prove to you just how little i did care
and all of the words, the words i never spoke
i'll prove to you just how little i did care

i'll prove to you just how little i did care

eriq - vox, guitar, piano
jimo - backing vox, bass, guitar
tommi - drums

we're breaking up

If this is the last night
We gotta turn it all up
They believe in us fools to
Try to kick start their lives

Gotta give 'em what they want
You know they'll just want more
Turned our heart to the tweens
To be swallowed by screams

Then we bloated our image
Till it tore at the seams
"Oh my generation of
Misguided stars!"

Just beyond the lights
I swear I saw your silhouette
Do we look like the wreckage
Of who we were
I tried so hard to forget

Yeah, we're breaking up

jimo - vox, piano
eriq - backing vox, guitar, bass
tommi - drums, backing vox

with tony & jerry - backing vocals

the tall man

lie awake, in the dead of the night
all the mirrors and shadows, as your cemetery lights

i...i've been waiting, waiting for you
for a very, very long time, come - we have such wonderful things to do

in oblivion.

when you die, you will not dream of heaven
and you will not, find your way to hell

you come to us.

eriq: vox, bass, keys, synth
jimo: guitar
tommi: drums, percussion

it always ends in tears

I'm going out on my own
make a new friend, or find someone to bring home

standing, at the edge of the door
hoping inside, that there'll be something more

sitting, alone, with these strangers and my drink
a shot and a tall can so i don't over think

maybe if i go for a smoke, and get some fresh air
when i come back again, this time the odds will be fair

so i pretend that i'm having fun
as i wait for a reason not to run

losing myself and all control
falling deeper and deeper into a dark hole

it always ends in tears
it always ends in tears

tommi: vox, drums
jimo: guitar
eriq: bass